It has been so long since I have felt your skin brush against mine and I realize that I miss that feeling. There has been so much hurt and so much anger that I'm not sure if I can forgive everything. What happened to us, how did everything fall apart like it did? I hate that I love you but I love that I hate you, does that make any sense...nothing makes much sense anymore. I miss the butterfly feeling I used to get in my tummy when I would see you walk into the room or when my phone would ring. The days when we couldn't stand being apart from each other long enough to go to work for the day, remember those days? I do, I don't want to forget them...EVER! I know I won't forget them because I don't feel that our time together has ended completely, although I'm unsure of what that statement truly means. We still have a long road ahead but I think I'm willing to take it one day at a time.

I can only do my best to try and express how much you are truly missed
Sitting here away from you, with thoughts of when we first met
I try to do my best but it seems to do no good.
Just do me a favor when the sun first rises - sit back and think of me.
If you would, I miss you like you could never imagine
I wish you could be apart of me.
Just listen to my words and one day you will surly see, that one day you are meant for me.
I put my heart into these rhymes, for it's not just me here doing time.
Just know time will pass and we will soon be together again
Trust and believe were now here near our end.
It won't be much longer just a little while more
So do me a favor and whenever I cross your mind think of me and smile,,,

Bullshit

Everything she felt in her heart

All the faith that she had in him, the trust and the love between them

All that she was, all she knew was shattered like that of a window in a storm

Pulled out from beneath her

All the words that were spoken, words that meant nothing to him

The words she so desperately wanted to hear him say --

The promises she both needed and wanted him to keep

The trust she put in him; when she knew she shouldn't

To believe that things could be different

That the hurt and deception would fade

The resentment would disappear -- love would concur

That the truth would all come out and cause no harm

Because she was always honest with him in the end and she felt she deserved the same

First Love Gone Wrong

I can remember how the two of you met

A lady in trouble and the man who was willing to help

The two of you grew close as time went by

You fell in love for the first time

The feeling was amazing

How his look would make your heart jump

The butterflies that would flutter when he said "I Love You"

Dreaming of the future you may have together

Never thinking that you two would part

Never doubting his love for you

You never dreamed you'd ever part

Never considering he would break you heart

Until one day everything changed

He betrayed the love you shared for one another

The pain you felt when he told you

Your heart being crushed

How could he have done something so awful

You thought he would love you forever

But his one mistake changed everything

The love you had for him was now gone

Alone and upset

The only question was what next

Feeling that you could never go back

But wanting him to comfort the pain that he caused

And not wanting to see him ever again

Wanting him to leave the planet

Your heart broken by losing your first love

Wondering if it will ever heal

Will you find love again

The answer is yes

Your heart will mend and I promise you will find love again.

A Heart's Beat

Torn between two hearts; the one that beats in my chest and the one that beats in his
A choice that must be made...the wrong one could end the hearts beat
The man that I'm so deeply in love with or that of a man who I have no choice but to love
Living in fear that the wrong choice may cause death
Death to the beating heart that fills us both with life
This man who I feel obligated to love is a powerful leader who with one word can stop your beating heart
He does not fight his own battles, they are fought for him by those sent to install fear
He thinks only of himself unless he somehow benefits 

To love him would be a loyal choice for a beating heart

The man that I am drawn too...love
A protector to all, a fighter to death
Compassion that my soul thrives on for life
Drawn to each other by mistake, forbidden to love thee
I cannot be the cause of his death, but yet I cannot stand to be without him
A man risking his life for me; to touch me...be near me
Was committed to saving me from a life of sadness has also condemned me to a life full of despair
Does his heart still beat without mine
Has he chosen to be gone forever

Will we one day be united as one heart that beats for two

My choice is to him
Chosen to lie dead beside my protector who fought until death
Who my soul thrives on for life

One beating heart is all we need

Looking Down: A Poem

You know that I love you,

That I never wanted to leave your side and be alone

I trusted in you and the love we shared; trusted our love when I knew I shouldn't have

Knowing that in the end you would hurt me when you said you wouldn't

I am lost about you, about the love that we share

As I look up at the stars I realize this is my last chance of happiness

I would bleed myself for you just to have your heart

I am losing my soul, all that I am as I search for you

You are in a place I cannot find until I have been chosen, for you are a love looking down

All I am left with is the memories of the happy times we once shared

I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive the way I am coping

I never saw such a tragic ending for either of us

I keep looking back, did I miss something

Anything that would have told me to never leave your side

I partially blame myself for what has happened

If only I would have fought harder for your heart than maybe you would still be here

Instead I look up at the stars and image you are looking down on me

You know that you will always have a place in my heart...you will not be forgotten

As hard as it has been time has eased the pain, and eventually it will fade

http://contributor.yahoo.com/user/532430/cassandra_parodi.html

Damaged Goods A Tragedy Changes Everything; You May Be Surrounded by Many but Are Facing it Alone

I know all the words, but I can't really speak them to you
I hide all the pain that I've gained with all the wisdom...from you
I'm eaten alive by what I hold inside myself
All the things that I live with are not easily seen by anyone
Nothing to live for...but you
It's not easy to hide all this damage I keep hidden deep inside
I'll carry it with me always, until I am no longer breathing
You look at my face, does it seem just as ugly...to you
I can't seem to erase all the scars that I live with everyday
I'm so sick of this place I can taste it in my mouth
I love you and I can't figure out why I do
I'm left with nothing
Nothing to live for, no reason to breath...but you
It's not easy to hide all the damage inside 

I'll carry it with me until I am no longer alive

Such a cancer as it eats at me
Everything that is beautiful is no longer
All that I am is everyone that I hate
The love has taken everything away that I so desperately need

Can't breath you out of the mind that is driving me closer to the end

Surrounded by Darkness...I can no longer catch my breath

Life as I know it is damp and cold
It is hard to catch my breath
For I feel that I have lost my soul, my will
To live or to die is not a question of faith
But a choice that will ultimately change everything that could be
As I fall to the depths of the ocean
I struggle to find what is left inside myself
Not knowing which way is up
Not knowing if I have the strength to go on
Feeling alone and afraid as I hide from the world that surrounds me
Not wanting to be seen as tears trickle down my checks
I make believe that nothing is wrong until I'm crying
Trying to imagine my life without you being a part of it
I know that I cannot go on
Seeing you so happy makes me feel so hurt and angry
Seeing you unhappy makes me hurt and angry
I am an emotional roller coaster
Having no way of knowing when I will be up or when I will be down
Questioning all and trusting nothing
As I surrender myself to darkness
I rediscover my true happiness 

I can now catch my breath no longer feeling lost

Sorrow in the Heart

He turned his back on his promise; stopped keeping his word

She did not understand what had changed - why this was happening to her

She thought about all that she did for him

Had it not been enough; was she not good enough

The confusion turned to depression and to sadness

She hated what her heart felt; all the pain he caused her

She did not hate him; she hated only herself

She could not bring herself to get out of bed each day

She had a feeling of despairevery timehe left

Every timeshe heard the door slam shut; a part of her slammed shut

Crying all the time she felt so alone

All the sorrow that flowed through her heart; all the hurt feelings

She wanted a way out; to feel no more pain

One night he took off without knowing if he would return

She reached for the bottle to end all the sorrow

To stop the nightmare of being alone and always wondering that he moved on and found someone new

http://contributor.yahoo.com/user/532430/cassandra_parodi.html