I'm sorry
that I bought you roses
to tell you that I like you. I'm sorry
that I am actually nice;
not a bitch.
I'm sorry
for relying on you.
I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a bar.
I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you than just screw you
like some random girl.
I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to,
but never good enough to date.
I'm sorry
I'm not good enough for you to listen to me when I need a friend.
I'm sorry
if I start not being there
because it hurts being used as a doormat
I'm sorry
if I don't answer my phone anymore when you call,

I'm sorry
that you can't realize..
I've been the one all along.
...but most of all,
I'm sorry
for not being sorry anymore.
I'm sorry
that you can't accept me for who I am.
I'm sorry
I can never do anything right,
and nothing that I do is good enough
to make it in your world.
I'm sorry
that I told you I loved you and actually meant it.
I'm sorry
for calming you down and taking care of you all those times
even after you screamed and yelled at me telling me
you were gonna kick my ass
I'm sorry for watching out for you
and making sure all is ok
I'm sorry
that I cared.
I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night,
talking about how you wish you could have done something different.
I'm sorry
for everything

Where have you gone

I really don't like it when we fight, you think that I do. I don't like feeling like this all the time. I don't need you to full fill my life but I do need you. I don't feel that's it's asking to much to have your full attention with no interruptions. You are living two separate lives and your slowly disconnecting from ours. I don't want to lose you and I don't want to hate you either. I want there to be trust and understanding, love and no heart ache. I'm not here for any other reason other that you and your heart. I wish you would believe in me that much, I would never do you wrong like everyone else. I have never left your side, leaving you alone. I said that I would be here no matter what happens and I always mean what I say!
You always keep me in the dark. I remember when you told me everything that was on your mind. We had no secrets, now it's only lies. I feel like an outsider looking in on someone who has pulled away. Who gave up long ago.
You make me feel like I'm don't belong in your world. You are so different now and you don't see it. Your blinded by what the scum feed you. Instead of being the man who took my heart so long ago, you have become a person I don't know. It's not hard to love someone, it's hard to hurt someone! Will you ever be able to understand what goes through my mind? To see where I'm coming from, be in my shoes. Always waiting for someone who always walks away. Never taking part of the blame and never wanting to mend the pain.
I shouldn't have to do this alone...feel like I feel...what has become of the one who has my heart?

Love is a Verb

Love is a verb,
So make your words.. and actions match.. the feelings of your heart
If you love me
Tell me, show me, love me

I’m scare..d to fall in love.

I expect you to be the
Last one to love me in return.

If I could.. just have one wish
I would.. wish to wake up every..day
To the feeling of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my check..,
The touch.. of your fingers on my skin,
And the feeling of your heart.. beating with mine…
Knowing that I could.. never.. find that feeling
With anyone other.. than you.