Have you sat and tried to understand how I feel? Do you care about how I feel ever, what goes on in my head and my heart. You have put me through so much emotional bullshit that I'm afraid to get close to you. I'm scared to death of not being able to survive; with or without you. The things that I have had to deal with, had to go through. I have felt so alone and unwanted, feeling forgotten and abandoned and then having to deal with being locked away for awhile. You have made me forget who I am, made me dependent on you and not myself. However recent events have shown me that I am still alive inside me somewhere I just need to dig deep inside me. I have found little piece of who I am peaking through. Since you have been gone things have changed, I have changed. You have forced me to change my way of thinking, not everyone thinks and feels like I do, I have come to realize the cold hard truth. I don't believe that people ever truly want to shut the world out but it's our nature too these days...I'm just do dam tired of bring the only one with an open mind and not a close narrow one. You tell me one thing and yet didn't really mean any of it, why waste the breaths that you breath?
